Venue: Temasek Secondary School. 
Time: 7.30pm - camp is over
Theme: Black & Red
Occasion: Sports Captain Farewell Dinner

nissa came over to get ready with me. :) so together, gether we got ready. :) i just repeated myself. she thought that coming to my house at 5.30pm is too early to get ready. but guess what, we were done a few minutes before 7pm. and mommy drove us to school. :)


yup, that's my best friend, all right! :D 
*that's my necklace she's wearing. :) 
** it's a good thing ceejay gave me a red necklace for christmas07. :)
i cannot imagine life without her. i think i'll be screwed!


some band that played for us. :)
and that guitarist is my classmate who took part in SUPERBAND! :D


aqeel, my man! :D he sang, all right. and when we were walking to the canteen to take picture because of the lighting, he sang to me. AWWWW! :D
"Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again. don’t make me change my mind."
hahahaha, so cute right? :) but then, he went off to sing it to barbara later on. -.-


i think i take quite nice pictures. :)


farewell gifts from the Sports Captains. :) awww...

nissa's daddy sent me home. :) we left school about 1015pm. and what did i do after reaching home and bathing? hurhur..


yeap, i watched this movie. hahaha. i think i've been watching malay movies, lately! I'M IMPROVING MY MALAY INSTEAD OF CHINESE! :D
hahaha. nothing big, this show. sooo much like congkak. pffft.

ps: will wait for more pictures from venice and barbara. :D

GOODBYE! THIS IS MY LAST POST! :D

1. To love someone is to allow him to destory you, but trusting him not to do so. 
2. I must be strong, and love the sound of you walking away.
3. Mascara bleeds a blackened tear.
4. If you love him, let him go. If he comes back, you two are meant to be. But he never did, and never will. 
5.  So if you're lonely, you know I'm here waiting for you and here I am, fighting not to cry and thats another reason why I ought to hate you like I do.
6. You're the reason I'm leaving, if we're leaving, we don't stop living.
7. No chance for one more day.
8. I found you here, now please stay for a while, I can move with you around.
9. Hating hurt the most when he means everything to you, but you mean nothing to him.
10. I can't live if you're unhappy, I can't live if you cry. But I can live without you, if it makes you happy. 

i think this would be the dessert for the waterworks to come when a relationship goes down.
no idea why i put it up. but i somehow think it is true. :s 

*taken from steffi's old blog. (forgot to put that in :x)

i always thought charm bracelets are the prettiest and has the most value in them. until now, i still think so. :)
because behind every trinkets, there is a meaning. that is what i love about charm bracelets. because if everyone were to own one, it will be different. :) that is why it is superly nice. :)
but also, charm bracelets are expensive. :( because it all needs to be bought separately. :(
ahhwells!
if i could own a charm bracelet, i'll be the happiest girl alive. :)
maybe it is time to whine to mommy? :D haha. nahhhh.. 

wedding was rather a bore. i thought the hotel would have been flooding with peranakan people. at least maybe more than what i saw. all those ladies in pretty kebayas. BUT THERE WERE ONLY SO LITTLE. :(
well, pictures will be up soon enough.
the food was so not up to standard. we expected better. haha, yes, coming from a family who loves food. 
with the kebaya on, sometimes, i hate my car! i think it is too high especially in the sarong which can't stretch that much. :s

well, imran is now in frisco! :O lucky boy. haha, he messaged me when he reached. :) hahaha. awww, so sweet. :)
it is good talking to him all over again after four years. :) 

"we danced through the night.
and we held each other tight." 

 



HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hehehe! i wanted to be the last to message you and wish you but i lost your contact. :s
so, i might probably be the last to wish you on the blog. :D
hope you had a great birthday! :D may your special wish come true! :D take care!

love, lee ann.

i miss getting surprises. :(
i forgot the feeling of being surprised. :( ohwells.

ps: mommy thinks that a star keychain would go nicely with my bag. but we never seem to be able to find one. :( even more sad! 

i'm really starting to feel better now. it feels better actually. i don't know, maybe i'll just live this day and see what else i would have in stored for me tomorrow. :)
for God holds tomorrow,
and He always holds my hand.
well, so imma blog about things on a lighter note. but before that...

the day started out terrible as i dragged my legs to school. the stars on my bag and shoes were there to remind me about certain things. but nothing really mattered at that point. it started to drizzle and it got a little heavier. i was on the verge of tearing but i knew deep down i was stronger than i thought. feeling more confident, i looked up..

i saw the rainbow. (kinda faint seeing from here) and it just felt that i shouldn't worry anymore and everything will get better. and i always remember Kelly's message to me.
kelly love: darling... see the rainbow okay.. know i will always love you! and that all i want is the best for you. *** i'm gonna fight with you. yay!
that'll bring a smile to my face and i know things will be fine. :)

just stoning in class made me remind myself that i'm already secondary four and everything's ending soon. i always remember how in secondary one who did a film for some subject in the boys' toilet. and in secondary two we painted toilets to make them happy toilets. and in secondary three i remember having the worst relationship ever in the ending of the secondary two year! HAHAHAHAHAHA! that's mean to say, but i think it is true. never cried so much before. okay, okay. in secondary three i remember the great date of 17 august. :) and in secondary four I'M OLD!

the badges i received throughout my schoolyear. but i'm dedicated to sports captains, you see. :)


can you imagine? this dude who always cheers me up was a faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat baby?!

anyhoos, i saw MR JOHN WONG FROM SAINT PATRICK'S SECONDARY WHO'S IN SHOOTING CLUB(i know many johns, that's why) twice in one week. :s STALKER! hahaha. joke! :) who would guess that i'll see him at ANG MO KIO! hello?! we're both at the east. hahaha. ohwells.

ELIZABETH! THIS IS FOR YOU! :))))

the night was lonely. the room was dark. all that was heard was the resistance to cry out loud. the soft sobbing. the wet pillow beneath the head. it hurt just thinking about everything, especially about things that you can never solve.
things that God had plan that is beyond the control. why does it hurt so bad when it is safe in His hands? why is it that impossible things to solve are the biggest problem that you face everyday and you just wish someone is there to listen to you and just to find out how you are everyday? why does everything seem to hurt so bad when things aren't going the way you wanted it to go? why, oh, why?
less than 3 hours of sleep before dragging myself to Church for the 6.30am mass for my greatest grandfather. 
PraiseTheLord for the smart person who invented glasses to make puffy eyes look normal under em' glasses.
PraiseTheLord for people who think the eyes are formed due to lack of sleep and also because it looked like it under em' glasses.
11 years went past. how fast is that? what memory can i hold on to? i wish there was... i wish there was something more than pictures. (the rest are PRIVATE - if you get what i mean)

"hey, are you all right?"
"why you ask?"
"you seem super sad and so not yourself."
if my track&field JUNIOR could notice something was wrong with me, i don't see the reason why others closer to me can't. maybe there might be realisation but not the concern to ask. maybe...
but i thank the great Lord for the classmates He has given me. for them to see how shitty i was and lifting me up by doing extremely stupid things which got me to smile by the end of the day. :)
but then again, i never like it when i'm left alone. with no one to be there to talk to me and get my spirit up again. let the thoughts just flow right in.
i'll live, won't i? :)
yes, i will!